Alas! Alas! Life is full of disappointments; as one reaches one ridge there is always another and a higher one beyond which blocks the view. ~ Fridtjob Nansen.
Yes – this will be one of the few times you will see me as Negative Nancy…but we are all allowed to complain every now and again!
Last night I was supposed to participate in week #2 of the Varsity Sports Wacky Wednesday Summer Series. The 2-mile trail ran through Fontainebleau State Park and was slated to start at 6:30 pm. Registration began at 5:00 pm – and since I pre-registered, I arrived there around 5:45. At 6:00, the dark clouds started rolling in. At 6:20, ferocious rain hit! At 6:30, they called for a 10-minute delay. At 6:40, there was rumor of the storm passing…so they called another 10 minute delay. Disappointment #1 – At 6:55, they announced that due to the unrelenting lightning strikes, the race was cancelled. They did offer games, food, and beer – since it was already set-up – but I wanted to head on home to try to get in a quick elliptical workout. Lo & behold…there was NO WAY to get to my car without walking in 1/2 foot to 1 foot of water. So…my running shoes got thoroughly soaked.
It was only a 5-minute drive home (with a quick stop to fill up my gas)…but by that time, the water-logged socks were really rubbing my newly formed blisters (from the NYC walking escapade). So…I decided to not work out at all. Disappointment #2 – I have YET to follow my new half-marathon training schedule.
Since I was not planning on being home so late and in such a sour mood…I did not have any dinner laid-out. Disappointment #3 – I ate Lean Cuisine for dinner.
Somehow – I believe all the excitement of our anniversary…our NYC trip…other personal things going on in my life…the hubs leaving for offshore…and my overall sh!tty mood – I was just overcome with tiredness. I could not, for the life of me, keep my eyes open. I was spacing out during my dinner…and dozing off as I was doing my night reading. The last I looked at the clock it was 9:17 pm. And then I zonked out. The hubs later called to check-in at 10:30 pm. We chatted for a few, then I zonked out again. Disappointment #4 – I was so tired that I do not think I was coherent enough to talk to the hubs – yet alone remember the conversation! Now I have to wait until tonight to chat with him again.
Over the weekend, I had psyched myself up about running in the morning. I mean…with 90+ degree heat and 50+ percent humidity in the afternoon/evenings…I was ready to try something new! And of course, the alarm went off early this morning, I rolled over and tried to stare it down. Disappointment #5 – I hit the snooze button, reset the alarm for an even LATER time than I normally get up, and fell back asleep. Maybe next week?!
Of course, now that I have the majority of my negativity out of my system, I can only hope that it will get better from here!
Of course there will be disappointments and the way will not always be as I expected it. But if it seemed easy, then that would be the time to worry that I am on the wrong path. ~ Anne Perry.